Tuesday, October 26, 2010
okay i promised myself years ago that i will never again step into issues regarding you but i failed the promise yesterday.....because when you; my friend was in trouble my heart told me that i should atleast tell you afew good words to cheer you up because i still care for you :) because even though you are just my fren you created a great impact in my life.... :)
though we dont talk to each other that much now..... the memories where we both kept fighting and all replays in my mind often.... it's sad that i am loosing a fren like you....hope this distance between us would decrease :)
Monday, October 18, 2010
okay my mood is just soo sugared up! firstly my exams results gosh they are jut soo disguting to even think about and i dont wanna talk about them .........
i really feel damn irritated why does evryone make frens with me with a inner motive inside them it's always been like that except for some people.... seriously it really gets into my nerves when someone just makes frens with me so that they can communicate with the other person through me.....it's like freaking idiotic....gosh :( i am just your fren and why did our frenship end abrupt is it because you've found an easier way to talk to her alrd? hmmmm you've just proved you are the same as everyother and yeah i dont need a fren like eu anymore....:) goodbye cause you just remind me of someone who did the same thing long ago..... and secondly i just feel very very very depressed i just dunnoe why.... i cant seem to find the reason which is there lingering arond my mind.... it stupid to feel like this when you just cant figure out why your mood is efffed up...i think i just have to go to a big and wide field and screammmm my lungs out together with all the sorrows ....
i just cant show my frens how i feel inside but why am i all feeling teared up inside when nothing happened ? this is damn wierd seriously damn wierd i really got a bad feeling but i dont know over what..... :/
i really feel damn irritated why does evryone make frens with me with a inner motive inside them it's always been like that except for some people.... seriously it really gets into my nerves when someone just makes frens with me so that they can communicate with the other person through me.....it's like freaking idiotic....gosh :( i am just your fren and why did our frenship end abrupt is it because you've found an easier way to talk to her alrd? hmmmm you've just proved you are the same as everyother and yeah i dont need a fren like eu anymore....:) goodbye cause you just remind me of someone who did the same thing long ago..... and secondly i just feel very very very depressed i just dunnoe why.... i cant seem to find the reason which is there lingering arond my mind.... it stupid to feel like this when you just cant figure out why your mood is efffed up...i think i just have to go to a big and wide field and screammmm my lungs out together with all the sorrows ....
i just cant show my frens how i feel inside but why am i all feeling teared up inside when nothing happened ? this is damn wierd seriously damn wierd i really got a bad feeling but i dont know over what..... :/
Saturday, October 16, 2010
really miss you .....
Thursday, October 14, 2010
today i thought i was gonna die at home of boredom but amrita saved my lifeeeeee! hahahaah that kutthi came my house and we both made "agar agar" hahahah it was suppose to be "agar agar" la but for some reasons it was like edible sweet rubber hahaha =) then later around 5 we ate "lunch" together with my stupid bro hahah....
eventhough it was like about 5 hours she was in my house it was like one whole day like that hahah that is how much of fun we had laughing at each other hhahaha :) i had never had any bestfren like her sindhu and maha they are awesomeeeee and make every day of my life meaningfull!
amrita: she has always been there when i was in bad times and in good times..i had never had any bestfren like her and i bet our friendship wont end that fast :)..hahah oh she is the one whom i have done crazy things with too hahah dying hair, piercing ear and stalking hahahah! crazy moments yet unforgettable :)
sindhu: hahhahahaha the only uk fren who is capable of immitating a uk and make me laugh like a mad woman until my stomach aches hahahah *hmmmmmmmm* hahahah and yeah an awesomeee fren who is gr8 i giving advices though alil shorrrt tempered haha :)
maha: hahhaahah i'm giving her a new name *blanket* hhahah the best funky teddy who does crzy things and laughs like a mad woman one example of crazy thing she did was to touch my tamil teacher hair and pluck a jasmine out from her head hahaha xD
eventhough it was like about 5 hours she was in my house it was like one whole day like that hahah that is how much of fun we had laughing at each other hhahaha :) i had never had any bestfren like her sindhu and maha they are awesomeeeee and make every day of my life meaningfull!
amrita: she has always been there when i was in bad times and in good times..i had never had any bestfren like her and i bet our friendship wont end that fast :)..hahah oh she is the one whom i have done crazy things with too hahah dying hair, piercing ear and stalking hahahah! crazy moments yet unforgettable :)
sindhu: hahhahahaha the only uk fren who is capable of immitating a uk and make me laugh like a mad woman until my stomach aches hahahah *hmmmmmmmm* hahahah and yeah an awesomeee fren who is gr8 i giving advices though alil shorrrt tempered haha :)
maha: hahhaahah i'm giving her a new name *blanket* hhahah the best funky teddy who does crzy things and laughs like a mad woman one example of crazy thing she did was to touch my tamil teacher hair and pluck a jasmine out from her head hahaha xD
Wednesday, October 13, 2010
tears reaveals a broken heart......
PHEWWW! exams are like finally over......prrrrr 2 weeks of exams was like hell....i found most of the papers hard! arghhhh bangballs.... nevermind i just hope i do not retain.... for now i really cant enjoy as because i dont really know what are my results are gonna be like.....gosh okay enough of school matters......
golden words : just because a person does not tell eu he loves you does not mean he did not ever fall in love with you maybe it was just a matter of unspoken words in play...... <3>
Friday, September 17, 2010
okay i have 12 days to exam and i am gonna start studying only now
but it's never tooo late i believe in my self and yeah i am gonna start today haizzz.....really hope i clear sec 3....i also do not wanna have bad grades this year....am gonna divert all my thoughts towards exam....
you know i really missed those moments i use to have with you....i really misss those stupid coversations, little fights we used to have..... you treated me like your friend last time and shared me everything.....or were you just using me because i was the closest connection to her?
no that cant be the reason something in my heart tells me that you really did treat me as your friend...then why did all the conversations suddenly stopp? i am still amazed even when i see you anywhere you just smile and wave a hi to me .....you dont talk.....this distance kills me
my friends suspect that i like you but i know the answer....i really do not like you and i just can never fall in love with you.but there is still an unsolved puzzle within me i hate you very much and why do i still miss you? gosh i feels like an endless story......
but it's never tooo late i believe in my self and yeah i am gonna start today haizzz.....really hope i clear sec 3....i also do not wanna have bad grades this year....am gonna divert all my thoughts towards exam....
you know i really missed those moments i use to have with you....i really misss those stupid coversations, little fights we used to have..... you treated me like your friend last time and shared me everything.....or were you just using me because i was the closest connection to her?
no that cant be the reason something in my heart tells me that you really did treat me as your friend...then why did all the conversations suddenly stopp? i am still amazed even when i see you anywhere you just smile and wave a hi to me .....you dont talk.....this distance kills me
my friends suspect that i like you but i know the answer....i really do not like you and i just can never fall in love with you.but there is still an unsolved puzzle within me i hate you very much and why do i still miss you? gosh i feels like an endless story......
Sunday, September 5, 2010
okay firstly i have not been having the mood to blog lately but i have forced mysef to blog today ever since the last i blogged soo many things have happened........
19 august 2010
is the worst day in my life because i cried that much on that day my 'fren" used my phone without my permission and texed mainly a person the word "i love you"
omg la i felt as if the world was about to crash when my fren told me about it luckily when i called the person and told the person that it was not me who send the msg the person believed me !! i can soo imagine what would have happened if that person did not believe me la ! hiaz....
and to my FRIEND who used my hadphone to msg such a thing apologised to me and suprisingly i just forgived..... i mean this thing was destined to happened by god so why must i be angry with my FRIEND who did it playfully....? after all i learnt something through this incident about the word friendship and trust........
okay so enough about that matter now my exams are nearing goddddddd!
i am not ready yet la shitsss......must study hard really hard....
and till then i am gonna refrian myself from going out anywhere and using the computer so i guess i would be M.I.A again until exams are over....
yesterday i dreamt about something beautiful about a random person telling imy to me i mean after all the person i know why that person?! pfffft nevermind lurh after all dreams are'nt controled by us so yeah..........
